I've not done anything to prepare for Liza's visit other than talk about it! This past few days, we've had so much on our plate and they will be here tomorrow! I have a ton to do but, I can not wait! Buddy posted a picture on FB yesterday of Aylabelle's first trip to the zoo. I could not stop laughing! Not just smiling. This picture makes me laugh! She's so dang cute and look at those little chubba legs! They look like Grammie's! Why are they so cute on a baby? Oh my gosh, I love this baby! I'm counting the minutes until they get here! HAPPINESS! (And does Buddy look like a happy dad or what!?)
However, in the midst of all our excitement for Liza and Aylabelle, life is real. And we are counting moments in another direction completely. Gene will be gone soon. It will, indeed, be a blessing for him to be out of pain, out of his 85 year old body, "Graduating". But, still. We know that Mom will miss him immensely. Doug and I went to the nursing home last night and spent almost four hours with his mom. We don't know for sure if Gene knew that we were even there, but it was a delightful visit with his mom.
Mom and I began writing his obituary, which I will finish and she can decide what she wants to leave in or not. I teased her... She knows that I don't say anything in two or three words when a hundred will do. I said, "Mom, I will write my version and you can decide if you want the $8 an inch obituary or an eloquent life history when it's done. It's totally your call!" She laughed. I adore Doug's mom.
At one point, the nurse was giving Gene some attention. Mom stood up and let him know that she was still there by his side. I teared up and whispered in Doug's ear, "Please, never leave me." I can't even go there in my mind.
So, it is odd to be having such mixed emotions in the same moment!
A few other ramblings...
Doug came home with a little note that two women and signed had written a note to the "powers that be" at work and apparently, he was recognized yesterday for it... "Doug took time out of his break to shovel the sidewalk. He is always willing to help others and always does it with a big smile on his face." That's my sweetheart! Always smiling and always willing to help. I was glad to hear that others notice his strengths too!
So, it's 8:57 AM and I've already had a full morning... I didn't sleep last night, for fear of oversleeping and missing my 7:30 dentist appointment. The alarm went off at 6:05. I must have hit cancel instead of snooze. The next time I moved was when I realized I'd overslept! Eighteen minutes later, I'd sent the kids out the door, gotten dressed, did my face and hair, made my bed and drove into Logan to walk in right at 7:30 on the dot! The darling dental hygeinist kept looking at me, like "Why is she here?" Finally, I said something about the early morning appointment and she started looking at the computer. My appointment is on March 4th!!! Quayd was with me because he's supposed to have an ortho check, as well. They fit in his ortho check and we laughed about my aging brain the rest of the time! Now, THAT was funny enough, but then...
We stopped by the nursing home, grabbed a bite to go at Carl's, Jr. for Quayd and then I dropped him off at school. As I was walking into the house to do some busy work for Doug's mom, I got this text from Liza: The plane is about to take off, so I am going to turn off my phone. See you soon! Drive safe! I read the text and FREAKED OUT!!! I called Liza! I'm thinking a million thoughts a second, "PLEASE ANSWER! How could I do that? Did I purchase her tickets for Tuesday instead of Wednesday? Is she really on her way here? AWESOMENESS but she's gonna beat me to the airport! Her room's not ready! I've not bought her surprises! I'll make the cemetery call on my way! I need to stop and get gas and wash the truck! TODAY!? REALLY? Am I really LOSING IT!" Liza answered the phone. "Liza??" She's suppressing her laugh, "Yes?" "Liza?" She started laughing so hard and said, "Just kidding! The funniest part is that I told Buddy I'd sent you this text and he told me about your facebook post about the dentist." Liza didn't even know I was already half-baked it this morning. Oh, my word. You'd think I have a few things on my mind today! I'm still laughing!
Speaking of laughing... when we stopped at Carl's Jr, I asked the girl over the drive up intercom, "Do you have anything breakfast sandwiches that aren't on biscuits?" She said, "We have a sausage, egg and cheese burrito." I asked,"What's on it?" She, quite snarkily (is that a word) said, "Um. Sausage, Egg and Cheese." Quayd and I busted out laughing. I said, "I meant does it have peppers and onions or things like that?" She grunted, "It has sausage, egg and cheese." We pulled forward and were still laughing at my lame question. She just glared at me as she handed us the food, I said, "You need to smile!" She said, "I did that at 4:30 this morning." Alrighty, then. Quayd and I were still laughing when I dropped him off at the school.
We did stop in to see Gene before I took Quayd to school. We told the kids that they could go up to say goodbye if they chose to. The girls were uncomfortable with the thought. Quayd, on the other hand, insisted. He was quite nervous about it and didn't know what to say, but he held Gene's hand, made a few comments and said, "Bye, Grampa." I love Quayd's gentle heart. He's so like Doug that way. He helped Grandma with her coat and gave her loves. When Mom saw Quayd, her face just lit up. We felt like Gene recognized that Quayd was there. He actually opened his eyes. Quayd was glad that we went. It's hard, but it's such a blessing to know that he will be free of his aged body.
The rest of the week includes:
- getting ready for Liza and Aylabelle's visit
- helping Mom with anything we can to prepare for Gene's passing
- LOVING ON THOSE SWEET BABY CHEEKS!
- Hosting a Paparrazzi Party on Thursday night (Liza's new business venture!) ALL are invited!
- Hosting a family gathering on Friday night for Liza to have time with the Corbridges
- Preparing a lesson for Sunday on communication
- a possible/probable (according to the doctor) funeral
So, that's my crazy morning, day, upcoming week. Counting down minutes till Liza gets here! Counting hours until Gene leaves us. Counting the list of things I have to do today! Counting how many brain cells I have left lately! ;) Life is good.
I've just quickly reread this post and it sounds like I'm on fast forward today! Deep breath! And I'm off!
Rise up and attack the day with enthusiasm!